Big Girls DO Cry

I've been noticing lately that my emotions have been on high alert. I've become more sappy than usual (if that's possible) and even the slightest thought can bring me to tears.

Here are a few moments that have done just that lately:
-The car commercial where the little 5 year old girl is in the drivers seat and the dad hands her the keys through the window while telling her all the "rules of the road." Then is flashes back to the girl and she's really a 16 year old but to her daddy it doesn't feel that way. That will be Mike and I in 16+ years with Micah and it hit me hard how much you have to let your worry be as a parent and allow them to experience new things no matter how scary it is for YOU! I tear up every time I see it.
-The Pampers commercial they over-play on TLC about how every baby no matter what the circumstance was meant to be here and they roll through many different images of all types of babies. Hits me hard each time!
-The song by Coldplay called "Fix You" that Javier Colon sang on The Voice a few weeks ago. It makes me think about how I will feel as Micah walks through the trials and tribulations of this life. I want her to know that I'll always be here for her and I will do all that I can as her mother to provide the support that she needs no matter what, just as my MomR did for me. So I told Mike that I'm going to sing this to her from day one as I rock her to sleep. I downloaded it on to my iPod so I could memorize the words and of course the next day as I'm driving into work the flood works start as it begins to play over my radio. I honestly felt a little insane when I realized that I seriously couldn't stop myself from crying. Ha! Geez!

Here are the words to that song.  You have to hear the Javier Colon version to get the true tender feeling!

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And on your face I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And on your face I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

I've also noticed that I've been more protective of Mike. He's been having car trouble lately and my mind will irrationally spin out of control with all these horrible thoughts that could possibly happen to him on the highway as he drives with this broken vehicle. I can't imagine my life without him in it. After all this time and all that we've been through, I'm truly still in awe of the man that he is and how perfect he is for me. (I am seriously wiping tears as I write this now! Are you kidding me?) He is going to be the BEST dad that I know and I haven't even seen him as one yet. I am just so confident in the kind of father he will be to Micah and the true partner that I have in him as my husband. I am one lucky lady. WE are two lucky ladies I should say. :)

A tiny little kick!

Last night I was laying in bed with my hands on my stomach and I felt her kick on the left side of my lower belly! It was the sweetest feeling in the world. It was just a gentle little flick from the inside. I told Mike right away and he shot up out of bed to try and feel it for himself. He sat there with his hand on the spot for a few minutes but he couldn't feel it, although I could still feel her moving around a bit. What a neat moment. I will never forget it. It made me SO excited to start feeling her more and more. Now that I know what it feels like, I'll hopefully be able to detect it again. I really am enjoying this whole being pregnant thing. What a true miracle!

Three little lines

On June 30th at 9:30am Mike and I walked into the doctor's office with excited stomachs and curious smiles on our faces. We could not WAIT to finally find out the sex of our baby. It seriously felt like Christmas morning as a kid all over again. From the moment that I found out I was pregnant with this child I thought it was going to be a girl and Mike felt that way as well. Then the PUPPPS thing happened and we started thinking a little boy just might be in there after all.

I went to Seattle for a meeting for work the Monday and Tuesday before our appointment and there and back on the plane all I could think about was all the reasons why it was going to be a boy. I told everyone who asked that week that I would be SHOCKED if it was a girl. I guess I should've stuck to my gut feeling because it turns out that we are having a little lady! Micah Janee is the first precious baby to join our family. When the sonographer said she saw three little lines I knew right away what that meant but still needed immediate confirmation. I couldn't believe my ears. Mike was speechless at first and then asked where she saw the three lines. Haha! She pulled a fast one on us! Leave it up to my little girl to send us mixed signals. I can already tell she's gonna be a handful!

I'm so glad that Mike video taped the whole experience so we can show Micah someday. It was so fun to watch her little body wiggle across the screen. The sonographer said she was very active. I guess the chocolate I ate before the appointment paid off! Thanks for the pointer Em.

They checked every major organ, counted her fingers/toes and measured many different parts. Everything checked out great and they said she is healthy.  So far so good! That was the best news of the day!

Hi Mom and Dad

She's a fighter already!

Sucking on her hands

Bottom of her feet/bootie - her lady parts

We left the appointment and immediately called Mike's family. They were all surprised by the girl news as well considering that the Simpson side only has 2 girl cousins that are spread 30+ years apart.  All the rest are boys. This baby will be the first granddaughter for Mike's parents and the 20th great-grandchild for Mike's grandparents. We sat in the parking lot at Macon Park (near the tree there that is dedicated to my mom) and called/texted our friends too. It was so fun to share the news with the people we love the most.  We meet my parents and sis for lunch at Chappell's in Northtowne at 11:15 and I had made little signs that announced the sex to give to them. (I had a boy version ready to go too just in case). They were totally surprised by the girl news as well. My dad was the only one who still thought it was a girl, even after the PUPPPS. He was trying hard to hide how excited he was that it was a girl but I could see right through it! He wanted a granddaughter and I'm happy that we were able to give that to him.

Megan and I left lunch and went shopping!!! I can already tell that it's going to be addicting. Girl stuff is just so dang cute. We went to Lauren Alexandra's, Baby Gap, Old Navy and Target. Baby Gap was having an incredible sale so we went a little crazy there, to say the least. We came back and laid all of her new clothes out in her room to assess what we got. I left it all laid out and I peek in there daily. It makes me smile!

The damage

That evening I invited my high school friends over for a reveal party. It's a tradition that we've done with each of their first children. I had them cut into a cake that either had pink or blue filling inside. It was really special to share that moment with them. Now with Micah joining the kid crew it will be four girls and three boys.

More belly pics...

P.S. My PUPPPS has returned. It seems as though it's going to follow a pattern for the next 20+ weeks. It starts out on my chest and then slowly moves to other areas of my body over a two week period. Hopefully this cycle includes the one week disappearance. I was up from 4-5am last night scratching my tail off.  Looks like it's time to bring out all my weapons again. For three days now I've had extremely sore calves and lord knows it ain't from exercising! Renee bought me a prenatal massage so I went today. It hurt so badly when she was rubbing on my calves that it took all that I had to not whimper in pain. Pathetic, I know - but true. You should see me walk down the stairs. It's not a pretty sight! Hopefully that will come and go as well.

Just another small price to pay for our Micah Janee.